Yvonne Foong -

I don't know what has gone into me. But I'm beginning to hate school. Probably because I have to plant my butt onto my chair all day without much moving around. I can't imagine sitting in College for 2 whole hours, much longer than what I'm going through now. Home schooling is not that bad. Sounds like a freelance student. My life now is not of much difference. I sit at home (cuz I'm tired every morning) and pop up my book whenever I want to. It's better than going to school, really. I can't afford to sit in front. My seat is at the corner. I can barely see the blackboard but nobody ever bothers. And I can't hear well too... so what's the point of schooling? It makes a difference to study at home, at least I'm more engrossed with my book here... But I know college will be better though. Cuz by then (hopefully) I'd be stronger. Sides, college does not start till 9am which gives me the time to warm up. I can't wait for college...but I can't skip schooling too. Because I've certain responsabilities in school. seesh....like next weekend the computer club is going to Sunway College's IT fair. I'm still thinking of whether to go or not.*sigh* Anyway, hospital admittance is posponed to the 20th March. I hate this...
Balanced. You accept your emotions as normal and
are not overly happy nor depressed. You are
emotionally balanced and should find peace in
the way you deal with life situations. Your
emotions are normal and well understood. You
see the light in the dark.

How Emotional Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla // series one name: Yvonne Foong birth date: 5 June 1986 birthplace: Assunta Hospital to be exact current location: Petaling Jaya eye color: brown hair color: Dark brown righty or lefty: right.. zodiac sign: gemini innie or outtie: inner // series two - describe your heritage: chinese the shoes you wore today: none yet your hair: short your eyes: japanese your weakness: unhealthy, easily taken your fears: if one day I turn out to be a non-working success your perfect pizza: island pizza and hawaiian delight at pizza hut one thing you'd like to achieve: the peace of mind // series three - what is your most overused phrase on aol\aim: HIE! your thoughts first waking up: not school!! the first feature you notice in the opposite (or same) sex: overall look your best physical features: i don't know...u tell me your usual bedtime: 11pm your greatest accomplishment: nothing really your best memory: *wink* some memories I don't want but stayed // series four - do you smoke: never!! cuss: ? [wats that ] sing well: I'm in Soprano 1 if that's what u mean take a shower everyday: I happen to live in Malaysia! like high school: used to want to get married: some day....one day... type with your fingers on the right keys: yes i do believe in yourself: yes i do but i sill want to hear oppinions get motion sickness: dunno think you're attractive: at heart. maybe think you're a health freak: yea! like thunderstorms: scary, fatal play an instrument: piano and violin but scrappy // series five - IN THE PAST MONTH, did/have you drank alcohol: yep! smoke(d): nope done a drug: morphin madeout: what do u mean by 'madeout'? gone on a date: nah i'm not wanted gone to the mall: duh been on stage: nope been dumped: nope gone skating: i wish i could made homemade cookies: don't know how been in love: love is the passion of life gone skinny dipping: nope dyed your hair: nope stolen anything: nope // series six - have you ever? played a game that required removal of clothing?: nope if so, was it mixed company: NO been trashed or extremely intoxicated: nope been caught "doing something": nope! been called a tease: nope gotten beaten up: NO shoplifted: nope if so, did you get caught: nope means nope! // series seven - the future age you hope to be married: 25, around there numbers and names of children: hoped for 1 but 3 is fine describe your dream wedding: garden but it's hot here, so a mordern one lah what age do you want to die: before my husband at least, it's painful to see him go what country would you most like to visit: modern england current clothes: pyjamas current mood: puzzled current taste: hunger current hair: untidy current annoyance: why is this thingie to so long? current smell: stuffiness current thing you ought to be doing: books current desktop picture: wang lee hom current favorite bands: don't like bands current book: between science & sejarah peradaban dunias current DVD in player: empty current worry: brain surgery current crush: some peers of mine *wink*

hospital...tomorrow....haih...

ahahaha!! The SPM and STPM results are gonna be released this coming Wednesday. I wonder what's Owen gonna get for his STPM. Maybe I should nag him into doing Medical Engineering or Radiography. Then me, Owen and Yewin can all work in the same hospital! Because I just decided to should combine Psychology with Health Science. Elena is right. It is more practical to do a joint programme if you take Psychology since it's not really a high demand for psychologists out there. Now, what's Kenneth Khaw gonna get? Out of the blues he spoke to me on ICQ and told me to say hie to him when I see him in school this coming Wednesday. Sounds fishy... Though I've kicked Yuki out of my mind, he's still my friend and I'm also concerned about his marks. But I know he's one whiz kid who will score damn well. So....blargh... but I'll be pretty busy myself on Wednesday. I've to find Pn. Vasanthi for my EMERGENCY oral exam, Pn Cheam for univ. referral then rush back to class in time to see Pn. Khoo while she teaches Literature as my second referral. All these must be done before recess since it'd be quite a jam after that and I'll get very confused myself. *sigh* when will this Rat Race end? More importantly, when will the struggle in life end? Gosh Fenix has this nice, new Tidus layout. Go check it!

Drats!! Overslept and did not go to school. *sigh* I wonder what they learnt during Science. Must be darn interesting, NO- boring. I've just completed the application form for BSUC. Now, I just have to get some teachers to refer me. My choices are my English teacher and my English Literature teacher. Since, it's UCIS with English language support, I'll get 'em. Sometime later, I'll have to sit for the IELTS as well. *sigh*

It happens that when I hate someone is when I stop loving someone. That's quite true, still, but I do not hate Yuki. After prayer today, I laid in bed while listening to my "metta" cassette. As I chant to the song, images of Yuki flashed in my mind. From the first day we met, till today. Things we did together, things we say, the day he knew I had a crush on him, the time he pre-rejected me, the sad moments I had thinking of him and the list goes on. I began to consider, is it worth of me to be in such a louse? What good does it make to love and wait for someone whom will never love you in return? I began to feel cheated. Cheated by time...cheated by life. I always thought that patience and perseverence will one day turn into happiness. But I got the wrong concept. Life is like being a puppy. One day, a puppy was very curious and asked his mother, "mom, where is happiness?" and the mother replied, "It's behind, at your tail". So the puppy was very excited he started chasing his tail round and round but never catched it. So the little puppy was very upset and told his mother about it. The mother told her puppy that you do not chase after happiness. You just have to go on walking ahead and happiness will follow you behind. This story woke me up from my dream. A dream that I was dwelling on and on for more than 2 years. They always say, "what is yours will be yours". "You must learn to let go and if it is yours, it will return".I'm starting to understand it. I'm now all ready to let Yuki go. Though I cannot have him, I will always wish him for the best. And I will not wish to have him anymore. Let bygones be bygones. After SPM, I will begin a new life. A new challenge, a new journey. I do not want to live on my parents and take their lifestyle. I want to create one on my own. One filled with happiness and laughter. Ofcourse, I will continue to discover my other half. But now, I will just let him come my way. I will not be like that puppy anymore. As they say, " There's no happiness if you force things your way". I understand clearly. EDIT:: This is one of my happiest days. I can finally get a heavy burden off my chest. I have just sent Yuki a mail telling him the same thing. Whether or not he replies, it does not matter anymore. Everything remains will just be a history. I'm glad it has over.

I'm in Alicia's house for a sleepover again. It's Valentines' night and we, the Single's Club are oh-so-bored. Today, I was supposed to go on a movie and dinner with Kenrick but he called at the last minute saying, "so sorry Yvonne, my mom wouldn't allow me to date." GOSH! I must be such a looser to date a mummy's boy. It's the biggest humiliation on earth!! How I wish I had a Valentine like anyone else... how wish....but guess I'm really putting Yuki behind my back this time. What good does a guyn like him make? Someone who doesn't reply your mail..doesn't give a damn what you're going through...etc etc...sides I've made up my choice on a better guy. HEH!

Marvellous NOT. Mum and I went all the way to GH only to discover that my surgeon is on leave!! He's in Johor and will be involved in the Num Summit. damn..they called me but I wasn't home and no one picked up the phone. BLAH! My sincerest apologies to Emii for causing a turn over on Yagamiorg. I think I've set my eyes on someone else other than Yuki. We shall call him....FENIX WHICH CHARACTER LOOKS LIKE HIM!?! Must ask the anime expert first. My God! I've so many university propects I can establish a prospectus gallery soon. Like today, I received ones from Univ. Glouchestershire and UWE. I also have Univ. East London, Curtin Univ. Northumbria CD brochure, AIU Univ., etc etc and a whole lot more I don't need. But most of all, I want the prospect from Bath Spa Univ. but snail mail is SOOO slow. Why? Because they offer UCIS. (Undergraduate Course for International Students. U need an IELTS score of 5.5 and above and a National Education Certificate for entrance. Since I lagged a lot on studies, this may be a good choice. Mom says that if I do bad, then I'll go to England, otherwise I'll be is Aussie. note: BATH is a world heritage city with many beautiful architectures from the remains of roman and medevial times. Among many is the ancient roman baths My aunt lives there so I can BUNK!! yippies!! I'm now busy telling people that I have moved.

Hello people. Here comes my new nest. Thank youEmii for hosting me!! Why did I took so long? Simple, because Emii's hdd was down and I was busy during CNY. It wasn't all that great. I didn't go visiting, because of my health. They just come. That's all. Apart from my relatives, those friends who visited me are Alicia, Elena (duh), Owen, Yewin and Chow Hoong. What happened to the rest? Ah well, they must have been really busy. Owen and Yewin's really nice. They always come visiting. Really great friends... hehe!! Got lotsa angpow too!! but I'm not gonna tell u how much...haha But I don't have much left now. I spent RM130 on fortune telling, palmistry etc. It's really fun to know your future. He's also able to tell my current condition. haha!! My friends and I are on a hurry, doing our English oral exam tomorrow. This time, it's a group discussion and our topic is "Being Young". I'm on the opposing team and I need to state that being young is a disadvantage. haha! I do agree you know...really~!! haih...hospital again. Surgery again. *sigh* major operations scare me to hell. And I don't wanna live in hell!! But God I know you'll protect me through this....so, I'm admitting this Thursday. I HATE HOSPITALS!