Yvonne Foong -

Oh I'm so tired today. Last night was a long one. It was Benedict's 21^st birthday and we barbecued at Elena's place until 11 something. We went Kafe 7 after that and came home at about 12 something, almost one. Hmmm...I'm easily talked into things. I always get brainwashed and easily trusted on rumors. This, must be changed. *sigh* Hard one tho'. For once, I hope I was born a male. Then, I don't need to worry about gossips. :-)

Tonight, everyone's probably scattered everywhere like stray cats to celebrate the 46th anniversary of Merdeka. And me? Sitting here in front of my pc surfing some blogs for inspiration while downloading some stuffs. *sigh* Me now juggling between conversations with Elena, Joanne and xfresh. BTW, I couldn't connect through chatisus.com for ages. So now, Elena adviced me to try chat.chatisus.com and I got through! Buahaha! Hmmm....it's a long time since I last went to Kayin's server and speak to Yui. I wonder if they're still on earth. Tetrinet anyone? So bloody bored... this nako-head fella came online and I sent him a msg thru ICQ. I thought it got stuck like the previous attempts cuz it does happen between me and Yukito and some other people too. So I sent a few msges in a row to be sure. And bloody hell, I was accused of being desperate. What so wrong with that, huh? I always approach ppl online but I don't do it in real life cuz I probably have them speaking at the top of their voices to get me hearing. Ish......geramnya geramnya!!! Never felt so insulted before. I'm not gonna speak to that fella EVER again. Such friends....!!! Ok, let's not let such people spoil my mood. Tomorrow got barbecue party. Yum!!! Lotsa yumilicious FOOD. Yuki would love it, that glutton fella. Wish he could come but he's one thousand million miles away. Maybe in the future, he could create this tech thingie that can transport him back in how many how many light years. LOL! Oh hell....Tuesday got Moral trial exam. *sob* BTW. some nights ago, I dreamt I saw Yuki at the airport eating with his friends. He wore a bright orange shirt and suddenly everyone around me wore it! Even the shops were selling it. weird dream... then yesterday at Elena's buffet dinner, I saw this man, supposedly Elena's dad's friend, whose eyes look identical to those of Yuki's and then Yuki's face just flashed through my memory so I went upstairs and hide in Elena's room. I even fell asleep for awhile, leaving the computer unoccupied. The whole night, I was listening to Lizzie Macquire movie's song, "What dreams are made of" over and over again. I finally got the whole tune right now. That Elena even have the song in the car. LOL!! She fetched me home at about 11:20pm and when Snoopy saw me, it was as though I have not come home for a loooooong time. I tell you, that dog of mine is like a baby. She's my BEST FRIEND! In lighter note, I lost 6 KG!!! Yippie!!! But I'm still stauty looking as ever. This prove the theory that....fat DOES NOT contribute to weight! Hahaha!!! Now Kenrick is 15 KG heavier than me. I can't wait to tease him....!!! Ah but it probably won't work. Cuz like I said, when you're heavy, doesn't neccessary mean you're fat. ^_^

I received a phonecall at the Kiwanis centre yesterday, "Where's your husband?" he got the wrong number. Elena and Phoebe couldn't stop laughing after that. Goodness me I'm only 17! I feel so bloody guilty seing Elena's new maid. She's 17 years old, a month older than me. Look how much fate plays its part. She and I are humans with the same form of physical attribute. But we're born in two different countries and lives. I told mom and she said, "see...you're still sucking the milk bottle". Ofcourse, that's an irony. She meant that Ria, Elena's new friend, has to work and supplement her own income at such a tender age while I don't even lift a finger at home. In the future, no matter how busy I am, I shall NEVER hire a maid. *sob* it was raining last night, the sky was misty as ever and Mars can no where be seen. *sigh* BTW, Phoebe told me a vey sad news. Lawrence Ng, that kawaii brain surgeon in HH2 was a softcore pornstar before! NOOOOOOOO!! That couldn't be!! This can't be true!! He looks so decent and nerdy and ... he's supposed to resemble Yukito! NOOO!! I can't imagine Yuki being a pornstar. MUAHAHAHA!! *whoops* He reads my blog...I almost forgot.

Mr. X told me I've a character problem. (not his exact words but I guess that's what he meant) But what can I do? Problems: 1. not being considerate enough 2. lack the communication skills 3. demanding/stubborn/childish...whatever Reasons: 1. So happens I'm the princess of the family and I'm given priority by my friends and family most of the time. 2. It's the environment that I grow up in. I live among people like myself so I turned into who I am now. 3. This, I do not agree because it is just the way I impose myself to be. I do give in to people, most of the time. Resolution: 1. Be more charitable to others and more attentive to their preference. 2. Work with different people, I hope to meet better people when I start college. I'm not saying that those around me now are bad. 3. The best I could do for this problem would be to SHUT UP. :X I was not well liked in lower secondary because of my strict and just attitude. Now that I'm more easy-going and friendly, I'm accused of not being who I am supposed to be. Last night, my dad snapped at me, "Quit that baby talk of yours, how old are you?" My new friend at church, Michelle, guessed that Elena is in college while I'm in Form ONE!!! But that's a different case cuz the first impression played the trick. Ooooh! I look young! *wink*

Though I'm a buddhist, but out of boredom, I tagged along Phoebe, Elena and John to this Christian thingie....there was a talk by this well experienced and wise woman about love- relationships at our age. First she started about the developments that we face at teenage. Then she moved on to how we view relationships. She firmly convinced us that relationships at this age will NOT last forever. Because the maturity of our mentality changes as we grow into the adult world. But I've come to know some couple who keeps lasting partnerships since secondary school. She also pressed on a point that kinda make sense. "who says loving someone means you to be physically close to them?" It's kinda true....look how indecent some couples can get nowadays. I must applaud her ability to catch my attention, her humor, voice intonation etc. But anyway, I'm still keeping myself available because like any girl, I need to be loved too! But she says, "love, is about giving, not taking." Stupid Taylors College. Can't understand why they never learn their lesson. I came home at 10pm and the party was on. It went on until 12 midnight when it pulled our last straws. My dad called and failed a police report against those fools. There were loud rock music, like a concert or something, and lotsa people screaming off their heads. They were forced to dismiss and evacuate after my dad had dailed 999. This is not the first time my dad had lodged a report against the same college. The same thing happened last year. This is SO not ethical! I swear I'd NEVER study in this college.
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Owen sent me a mail yesterday telling me about his new love. "she's very nice and pretty...she is so good to me...I love her very much" I almost fainted... for I've never thought of hearing those words from a guy like him. I feel happy for him, for he has found who he truely loves. (my mom said Sabahan girls are pretty...hmmm...) Swee told me that he carries her picture in his wallet. I must have a look! After reading that mail, a weird feeling in me surfaced that kept me perplexed the whole night. It was a cross between laughter and tears. Until this morning, I manage to clearly identify it, a mix chemistry of grief and emptiness. I've known Owen for so many years now and I've kept him close to heart, like a distance brother. But now it's all different. This feeling is like a loss of a closed one. I suddenly feel that this world has nothing left for me to cling on and I'm all alone by myself.

I really don't understand this. I LOVE Literature but why must we study Perception of the End of Life?? They're all so solemn...it makes my day go bad. Like this one.... Futility        Wilfred Owen Move him into the sun- Gently its touch awoke him once, At home, whispering fields unsown, Always it woke him, even in France, Until this morning and this snow If anything might rouse him now The kind old sun will know. Think how it wakes the seeds- Woke, once, the clay of a cold star Are limbs, so dear-achieved, are sides, Full-nerved - still wam - too hard to stir? What it for this the clay grew tall? -O what made famous sunbeams toil To break earth's sleep at all? There, you see! It's so sad....so heart shattering...but the second poem we studied today is better. It's Death Like Conception by Muhammad Haji Salleh. This one sounds better because the persona views death in a more religious manner.

I've got a new e-mail account thanks to Emii. It's doey@yagami.org. Hmmm...now I'm wondering, how should I divide the usage between hotmail and yagami.org mail. Hmmmm... So, this busy weekend didn't turn out that busy after all. Kenrick hurt his leg during taekwando and couldn't come yesterday so Elena took the thing home to do her share. As for today, I was supposed to go to the MPO Open day but Cheryl, who was supposed to be with me, has got something else to do now. Nvmlah...it's not like that's so important to me.... Last night, I had a BAD nightmare. Very bad...! I dreamt that the guy I like dating another girl! I was so bloody upset in the dream and even woke up feeling disgruntled. This is bad......really bad....

New Layout! I don't know who this is.. but it sure looks like a character of ...er...I forgot the name of that anime, heck! My memory's cranky now. The post before this did not get published and I didn't know until a few days ago. I must have missed Emii's e-mail, she can now have sub-domains and multiple ftps cuz she changed server or something like that. *scratches head* From now on, you can access my blog via http://doey.yagami.org and not www.yagami.org/doey. ^_^ Oh Boy! The neuro surgeon in HH2 is so KAWAII!! and he kinda resembles Yuki in some ways. Like his posture, gesture, attitude, intelligence... almost everything! But then, Yuki once told me he'd not be a doctor as he possesses shaky hands. The surgeon also kinda looks like Napoleon, my friend/coach at the ice rink. He operated on his gf's AVM and left her in a coma. For over 2 years, he never gave up and continuously study about chances of coma patients awakening. So sweet! So she woke up in the end... splendid! Damn...I'm SO BUSY these days. This is the month of Merdeka and I've got a project in hand which I must complete by Monday. Kenrick and Elena are coming over tomorrow to fix things up. The history teacher had just topped up our homework as an SPM preparation. I also need to finish up my literature exam corrections by Monday!! Aiyo... Then on Monday, the moral teacher's gonna have my neck when we go through the moral values. Die lar.... Moreover I need to attend this function with Cheryl at KLCC on Sunday. ...busy...busy...busy...

Thanks Elena, Cheryl, Dave and Magpie. Snoopy is MUUUUUUCH better now. She's back up and kicking again. But still a little wobbly in her steps. She's eating again too! As for my absence, well, I'm spending more time munching books nowadays. Yesterday was the 8th August, exactly a year since my Spinal surgery. How time flies! I spent yesterday sitting at home brewing the KOMSAS syllables. ZzzzZzzZzz but there are a few meaningful poems which caught me. I was also down with a flu. It's gone and now I'm stuck with phlegm in there....*sigh*