Yvonne Foong -
I wrote these when I could still hear, sing in the school choir, play the piano, the violin, and actively participate in conversations. I was 15 years old when I started blogging and 19 when I met Cordy. This blog contains the innocence that one inevitably lose with age. Like any child, I could not have been more youthful. I was diagnosed with NF2 in July 2002. Click the appropriate links to read the events following my diagnosis. - Yvonne Foong www.yvonnefoong.comSunday, November 30, 2003
"Is is Love or Infatuation?
Infatuation is instant desire, one set of glands calling to another.
Love is friendship that has caught fire. It takes roots and grows, one day at a time.
Infatuation is marked by a feeling of insecurity. You are excited and eager, but not genuinely happy. There are nagging doubts, unanswered questions, little bits and pieces about your beloved that you would just as soon not examine too closely. It may spoil the dream.
Love is quiet understanding and mature acceptance of imperfection. It is real. It gives you strength and grows beyond you to bolster your beloved. You are warmed by his presence, even when he is away. Miles do not separate you. You have so many little films in your head that you keep replaying. But near or far, you know that he is yours and you can't wait.
Infatuation says "we must get married right away. I can't risk losing you."
Love says, "Be patient. Don't panic. Plan your future with confidence."
Infatuation has an element of sexual excitement. Whenever you are together, you hope that it will end in intimacy.
Love is not based on sex. It is the maturation of friendship that makes sex so much sweeter. You must be friends before you can be lovers.
Infatuation lacks confidence. When he's away, you wonder if he is cheating. Sometimes you check.
Love means trust. You are calm, secure and unthreatened. He feels your trust, and it makes him even more trustworthy.
Infatuation might lead you to do things you will regret.
Love will never steer you in the wrong direction.
Love is elevating. It lifts you up. It makes you look up. It makes you think up. It makes makes you a better person than you were before."
Saturday, November 29, 2003
Some say party is on Friday night. Some say it's Saturday night. But tonight, I'll be bored...rotting at home. Last night was a fun one cuz I came back at around 1:30am and everyone in the house were asleep. Me, Elena, Jie Yow, Cheryl, Shong Yew and brother went to this function in Bukit Kiara. We got free roller coaster ride! We were late so Jie Yow drove real fast squeezing through cars. Ofcourse since Cheryl didn't know the way she have to trail behind him. On the way back, Elena and I sat in Jie Yow's car thinking we can experience the roller coaster ride again but he wouldn't drive fast. :-( Was really tired last night I slept till 10am this morning and went to Aznin's open house with Elena, Phoebe and John. Met more xfreshers there.... had lotsa food and came home at 4pm cuz Elena has a dinner to attend tonight.
So if you're broke and want some thrill, look for Jie Yow when he is in a hurry. He'll not only thrill you but also give you a possible heart attack. My year-end experiences were never this fun before Elena and I joined xfresh.
Wednesday, November 26, 2003
After much thinking on the subject, I take back what I said in the previous post. The things that people claim to experience are not enough to prove anything. The bright lights and tunnels may be justa leading path to what lies after death. You just can't end up somewhere in a split second right? I don't think any of these people have experience further than that. And as for Amanda Cable's vision of her 5 year old daughter in the tunnel, it might be due to chemical changes in her brain the moment her body shuts down since she's been thinking a lot about her daughter, who will be starting her first day at school a few hours later. The only unanswered question is the hairstyle of her daughter in the tunnel. She've never seen her daughter's hair that way nor seen her daughter wearing her school uniform. Maybe it signifies that it is not time for her to die yet and that she's yet to see her daughter go to school. Her physical body came alive the moment her daughter bang closed the school gate while she was still in the tunnel. But this is only a MAYBE. No one can answer this yet.
Today, Elena and I went to Mariam's open house in SS18. Spent a few hours there. Funny thing...why is it that there is always ONE guy with us, not 2, not 3, not 4, but ONE. First there was Kenrick, John, Albert and today, Peh Hua. Once, only ONCE, was Tremayne. Weird... We were eating and chatting in her house for a few hours until 8pm. Elena, Peh Hua and me went to Ravis to yamcha before going to her house, for the sake of Peh Hua cuz he couldn't cycle home in the rain! In ravis, we had a great deal of time exchanging views on Christianity and a little on Buddhism. Haih...that topic will never end. Thank goodness Kenrick wasn't with us.
Monday, November 24, 2003
Have you ever wonder what lies after death? As a buddhist, I'm taught about death and after. We always watch on TV how the buddhist's vision of afterlife is like. Chinese believe that God of Hell have these people working for him. They're weird creatures, with a head of a cow and face of a horse. They come to 'pick you up' the moment you die and take you down to hell where you'll meet the God of Hell. This God will review how you did in life and determine where you'll go after that. Either stay in hell, promote to heaven or incarnate. There is also this other view. When a person dies, he will right away reborn into another life without going through anything in the afterlife. Only those who are attached to his previous life will stay around as a wandering ghost. But neither of these explanations contain any bright lights or angelic tunnels like those encountered by people with near or temporary death experiences.
Today in The Malay Mail, was a story depicting Amanda Cable's experience with death. When her nerves stopped pulsating, her soul got sucked upward and entered a very bright tunnel. In this bright tunnel, she saw her daughter dressed in her new school uniform, calling her mom to follow her to school. The best part was that her daughter's hair was tied into two bunches, which she never did before so it was impossible for Amanda to know how her daughter looked like with that hairstyle..... a few days after the operation, Amanda's husband brought their daughter's picture that was taken on her first day in school without her mom. And...boy! Was Amanda shocked to see her daughter dressed exactly the way she saw her in the afterlife, with the exact hairstyle and smile. Amanda Cable dismissed the supernatural as hokum all her life but after this frightening experience, she kept a keen interested in the supernatural.
So...I'm sceptical about how afterlife really is. Which explanation is true? Could the buddhist's view of afterlife be wrong? or slightly different? Unfortunately, those reported in familiar cases were only able to recall experiences with bright lights and long tunnels. Ofcourse, if they've seen more, they won't be able to come back and tell the world.
Saturday, November 22, 2003
Brother Bear is a good show. Watched it at GSC MidValley with Elena, Phoebe and Albert this evening. I was actually starving during the show cuz it was too early for dinner before the show started. And when it finished, it was over my dinner time. Guess what. We bumped into Alicia and Florence there. Whoa....this Alicia turning into a lady liow. More lady like than me man.... tsk... I must catch up!
I'm now feeling a little bad. Well...not bad. But...just uneasy. I checked my US shoe size at The World of Sports in Subang Parade the other day and my size is 8 1/2. But my aunt's size is 7 1/2 and she didn't believe me when I told her my size. She asked me, "did you go with your mom?" and ofcourse I replied a NO and she said, "there you see. You must go with your mom". I know it sound nothing but her intonation sounded a little crude. Like she's underestimating my intelligence. *sigh*
Thursday, November 20, 2003
Wheeee..Matrix Revolution chun lar!! Went watching it at GSC Summit with Jarn Way this afternoon. Keanu Reeve is so leng chai. heh heh heh... I never saw any Matrix before cuz I thought I won't like it. Summore a lot of ppl say not nice and complicated. But nolar....quite easy to understand wat. Summore we watch in GSC THX. SyioK Man! We sat on H16 and H17, right in the middle, just nice! The sound system was excellent! I feel like watching it again. The THX theatre should make its chair like those in Genting motion master type la. dat time lagi syiok! also saw the LoTR finale preview. Gollum is so cute. Before the show start there was the usual advert telling you switch off your cellphone and today were two fox or something, forgot oledie. Very funny wan. They were supposedly watching Brother Bears and one fella's phone rang. hahaha! cute! Tried this new KFC food. Dunno call what oledie. It's chicken in pitas bread. Delicious but a bit messy to eat lor. The bandito is still better. nyam nyam! Actually I didn't plan to watch movie today wan. But Jarn Way came home from college so excited and asked me to accompany her so I went lor. At first I thought, "aiyah Matrix ah...wasting money only" then after watching, "worth it man!" *drooooooooooool*
Wednesday, November 19, 2003
I was close to getting a job at Sommerset Bay. I went for interview yesterday and even photostated my exam result and IC as requested. But then, they MUST have my graduation certificate which my school haven't give us. AAAAAH!!!!!!! What kind of rule is this... chiplak Metrojaya. Pets Wonderland would hire me if I'm willing to go all the way to 1Utama. :-Þ~~~ no way!
There was a medical appointment this morning with my surgeon and GOD that was BAAAAD. I just hate their file keeping system. It took them more than an hour to find my file. The same thing also happened the last time I went there. And it can never be in one piece. Last time, they found the file but the scans are gone. Then they searched harder and found part of it. Today, all the scan was there but some notes went missing. My surgeon told me the last time we saw him that he would discuss about my SRS treatment with the doctors in their September meeting. Then today, he had to take some time to recall my case!!! and promised me again that he will discuss it in the January meeting. WTF!!! I feel doctors from all countries should work together. Like, start an international doctors association or something and this association should be in-charged of locating the doctors in every country. I feel so unfair why do I have to live in Malaysia. There is no single doctor who knows more about Neurofibromatosis other than its name. In U.S, almost every state have at least a doctor specialised in N.F and they are not regular neurologists but NF genetists! My surgeon was so blur when I told him about Dr. Jack Taylors discovery. These doctors know nuts and they're forced to deal with so many cases at a time. I doubt they pay 100% attention to any.
That was morning. Afternoon was better. Li Ann picked me up and we went jalan-jalan at Subang Parade until 5pm. Received a call from Elena just now and learnt that her day with Florence and Alicia at Pyramid went bad. Aaaw...so sorry for her. Too bad I couldn't come and she now says, "lucky you didn't come!"
Saturday, November 15, 2003
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOHNSON! I(we) just got back from Johnson's birthday party in Ampang. He had just turned 19. HurraY! And his house is DAAAMN BIG MAN! The swimming pool was tempting enough. We had barbecue but it was raining. But the exterior of the house made it possible in a rainy day. His living room is TWICE the size of mine....syiok lah.... There were around 20+ of us there. Didn't eat much though. The fun part was getting to know new people and watching Albert break the que. Tonight his record was recorded in 66 secs. I think he can do it faster. For me, I will NEVER be able to solve it.
We went in two cars. John drove Phoebe and led Elena, Andy and me behind. Thank goodness we didn't loose the way. He even showed us his ex-school, Sri Garden Int. That naughty fella drove in and out of it and we trailled behind like idiots. Finding the way back was even harder because John only told us the way but he left home in Seri Kembangan. We managed to find the way back tho'. Poor Phoebe had fever. Or we could have stayed longer. Oh, Andy had to leave early too.
Hmm... a lot of us are 19 this year. Funny thing.
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Thursday, November 13, 2003
WHEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'M FREEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!! Yesterday was my last paper! We had science and moral today. Woh...much easier than what I've expected. But they say moral is hard. Hmmm...weird lar....
After the science subjective paper, Elena and I went makan at KFC for lunch. We were early so we had a drink at New Taman Sea for awhile. While yacking, I saw this guy buying mixed rice and he looks 90% like Tremayne. 90% because I have to take 5% off for the 20ft between us that I can't really tell from the looks and another 5% for the fact that Tremayne should to be in Singapore. Maybe Tremayne has an illegitimate brother. :X aiyah...u know he always say he's an illegal child wan lah... But the way that guy dress(color & pattern), the way that guy stands, how he looks away, gesture EVERYTHING.... He sat about 25ft away so I didn't really bother and went back to my drink. Ah...why the hell do I care...
Today's Alicia's b'day and she's FINALLY turning 17. Kakaka! Before this I've longed for this very day, for school to end. But now, I feel... I need my friends. I want Elena & Alicia & Florence & Kenrick & Kenrick's gang...& people from the choir & Miss Susanna & many many many many more.... *warghhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!* I miss those days when we get together to do projects...I miss Kenrick who pats me on my head and pinch my cheeks...I miss Alicia who frets about everything......I miss Florence who craves for food......I miss the sounds of the choir....I miss the piano in the hall....I miss Pn. Kasma's bunny tooth...I miss Mr. Lee's reaction when he sees Florence and Grace(even Tremayne can't tell them apart)...I miss the days in form 1 & 2 & 3 & 4 & 5 !! There are so many things I miss....
But then, we all have to grow up and there's a lot more interesting expectations ahead waiting for us!
btw, for those of you have the time, there's a show in Bangsar's Actors Studio, on the 12/11 - 16/11. Tickets at RM45 & RM60. The title of the show is, "Through the Barricades, from Ms. Sygon and Les Miserables". The young KL singers are really good.
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Friday, November 07, 2003
NexGenix Pharmaceuticals Announces Breakthrough in NF2 Research
New York: NexGenix Pharmaceuticals, LLC, the first drug development company to focus on the genetic disorders Neurofibromatosis Type 1(NF1) and Neurofibromatosis Type 2 (NF2), announces that one of its scientist-founders, Tyler Jacks, Ph.D., has discovered a mechanism of action of the NF2 gene product. In research published today in the Journal Molecular Cell, Dr. Jacks and his colleagues at MIT, where Dr. Jacks is the David H. Koch Professor of Biology and Director, Center for Cancer Research, identified the mechanism in a paper entitled: “ Merlin, the Product of the NF2 Tumor Suppressor Gene, Is an Inhibitor of the p21-Activated Kinase, Pak1.”
NexGenix’s CEO, Allan E. Rubenstein, M.D., described the discovery as “major” and stated:
”Dr. Jacks’ discovery has direct therapeutic implications which will move ahead our timeline for drug development for NF2 by at least 2 years.”
More Information about NexGenix Pharmaceuticals is available at www.NexGenixpharm.com.
(YaHoO!!!!!!!!!!!! They're a step closer to a cure!! I can't wait!!XXXXXXXXX!!!!!!!)
Thursday, November 06, 2003
Alas! Weekend! and then 5 more exams to come. Maths was alright yesterday and this morning we had Literature. I went to school around 7:50pm and almost the whole class was at the canteen together with our class teacher and Pn. Khoo. The school was very quiet today, we're the only class present. We did the exam in the hall. This was my first time doing an exam in the hall and it felt weird. Kenrick's not the only guy cuz there were a few students from other classes too. Pn. Khoo's spot topics didn't appear in the exam!!!! Except for a 6 marks question on Lady Macbeth's insanity due to her actions. Heck! And I studied so hard on the supernaturals, Lady MacB's character and her influence on her husband. And guess what? The 10 mark question asks us who we think is the hero, Macbeth or Macduff? And I answered Macbeth cuz I don't really know much about Macduff but I don't think I gave enough points to earn 10 marks. Argh!!! Then about BA, I expected a question on Chandran's relationship with his parents but it turned out to be his relationship with Ramu and Mohan. I hope my answer was correct. That was a 6 marks question. The short stories and poetry was alright. I answered The Last Leaf's set question instead of The Examination day which I had earlier planned to. Haih..if I was given a choice. I would rather choose Willy Rusell's Educating Rita or Long Day's Journey Into Night by Eugene O'Neill. But then Kenrick probably sleeps in class, but then again maybe not. Maybe the lovey doveys won't bother him cuz after all he survived with the 20 of us for two years so such a small matter won't bother him wan lah.
Outside the teachers' room we met up with Pn. Khoo and went thru briefly on the test paper with her. I was standing in front and I think someone behind said she had problems with Lady MacB and Pn. Khoo realised it was a topic we have gone thru many times and she thought it was me who spoke so she gave me a whack on the arm. Hey! I'm good, you know?
There's this question about Chandran's change after his journey to Madras and becoming a Sanyasi for about 8 months. After the exam, me, Elena, Kenrick, Florence and Grace went for lunch at SS15 and while eating, we met this Sanyasi and I thought, "Could that be Chandran?" hehehe...naughty me. I got this band from him I think is nice and gave him a buck. Elena got one too also for one buck but greedy Florence took 3 for 1 from him. And being a generous and kind holy man he let that go. I talked about it after the guy left and Kenrick protested that if you go to the shops, RM1 for a band like this is cheap. Oi! He's not here to make a profit lah doink!
Tuesday, November 04, 2003
WhHhEEEE!! I bought Sammi Cheng's latest album and Lee Hom's Unbelievable! SyiOK Man!!! Esp. Lee Hom's R&B! He sings all kinds of songs. rap, hip hop, pop, R&B etc! Every album he makes bound to have at least an English song. He's so cool!
But the best I like in him is that he sings so well that he can actually sing the correct note without the piano! and he can play 5 music instruments! *drool* Lee Hom Rulez!
Saturday, November 01, 2003
Careless me! Handed up my Lit. book and it somehow got lost. This book, contain notes I need most. Cruel people out there offer notes online with a minimal payment. It took me hours before I found the right F.O.C source. I got notes on Lady Macbeth and the supernaturals covered. Today's venture on the net also led me to realise R.K Narayan's death that occured two years ago. 2 YEARS AGO?!? How ignorant I am! He died of heart failure...on 13th May 2001. I re-read Narayan's Bachelor of Arts just now. This is almost the 10th time reading it. The book was first written in the year 1930+, so one website said. Just couldn't believe such a witty author could die in this way. He was 93 at time of death. The first time reading BA was like any usual book but each repeated readings reveals more and more wits. It's a sad thing....such great authors are mortals after all. Now the trick question, should I just concentrate on "childhood" or also in "The Perceptions of the end of life?". hmmm...
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