Yvonne Foong -

Today was a fun one. First of all because I did my first dimensional design assignment which is to draw the plan, front and side elevation of a PIANO!! It tooks me 6 hours including times I used to measure some parts of the piano I've missed out. I never took any rest. Never crossed my mind to, didn't even drink water. And I completed my work at 7:30pm. It was quite hazzardous at first becuz I tawt I bought the wrong scale ruler. I was devastated trtying to locate Frank during lunch hour. Thank god he came to me when he returned. My savior! And I was drawing without a set square. How silly of me to leave it behind. I also left my compass at home so I had to agak-agak when drawing the curves. Psssst....dun tell anyone! After everything's done, the ink smudged when I was labeling with my parker ballpen! stupid thing....I changed pen and everything else went well. Then at 7:30pm, Elena picked me up from college, sent Alicia home and we went to Swee's open house. 3-in-1! It was Michelle's bday, CNY open house and swee's farewell party. It was sooooo difficult to find his house. We went round and round USJ12 and when we found the place we couldn't find a place to park the car! And I was very hungry then. Felicia and Amy was already there. We had some little chats with them and when Amy called Yewin he was at home blur as ever and thought the party is TOMORROW! And he thought I said it when I didn't. But that was a very small problem only. I'm not fretting. Just trying to joke. But it doesn't sound at all like one. The fun part was when we started playing blackjack. I was winning and loosing like usual and I didn't notice swee was loosing all the while. Then when Elena came stood behind me, I kept winning! I was betting RM1 in all games and I won RM13 when I left. Actually Yewin was winning too but when he became the chonker, he lost everything in one shot! Muahahahah!!!! So am I the grand winner? Don't think so cuz I left, Swee was at his 3rd game as the chionker and he was winning like hell! But dunno y money doesn't excite me so there's no point playing. We had to leave early cuz Elena have a meeting at 12 midnight and we had to get up early next morning for astro carnival. *yawn* Gonna miss Swee...*sob*

I'm hungry and a little sad. It was VERY sad at first but after realising that the situation isn't as bad as I think, I feel better. I'm sad cause Jason changed course AGAIN! This time its civil engineering. His dad disallow him to do Interior designing. He was supposed to give me some stuffs after CNY but msged me last night cuz he left them in Ipoh, his hometown, so he has to give them to me later. Reckless me to had left my cellphone at home. Jason tried contacting me but failed. He knows my schedule so he came looking for me in drawing class. I wasn't expecting him. But he came to repeat what he said yesterday on the phone. hehe! silly fella. When he told me about his change of plan few days ago, I had a million questions ready to ask him. But when I saw him in class today, I didn't know what to say. *sigh* After seing him I was practically half dreaming away while Jolly was teaching. Pssst...nobody knew. At that time my body was burning like a torch and I felt very bad for loosing a good classmate. Chan gave us an assignment to draw the plan of a piano so I went measuring it after drawing class and I saw Jason again! hehehe! He asked me about this guy who was with me and I told him I dislike that fella because yada...yada... and when I asked him in return, he said everything was alright. Now I feel so unfair cuz I let him know so much. I know he doesn't enjoy engineering. Moreover its CIVIL engineering. What kind of father is that to force his own son into doing things he dislike!

Happy Birthday Elena! She FINALLY turned 18 today(Wednesday). John and Elena had a combine birthday bash on Monday at Elena's house. They had a nice chocolate mud cake as the birthday cake. We had pizza for dinner and at 10pm we went to kafe 7, had a few games of pool and I playeed foosball for the 1st time and SYIOK MAN! I looove that game! It's so exciting especially being the goalkeeper. I wanna play it more! That night, I sleeped over at Elena's house and the next day Elena, Han and myself went to watch Silverhawk at MidValley. It was such a nice show though the actions are quite fake. We went to Taman Mega for dinner and the food the there is so yummy! I so want to try all the food but unfortunately I only had 1 stomach to feed. College resumes tomorrow. I'll blog more then.

We're supposed to go visitng today. But mommy is sick so we're going tomorrow instead. No one's online except Keisha. She encouraged me to change surgeon. I always wanted to do so. This doctor and hospital is USELESS. They never tell me what NF is. I had to do research for myself. Even my last brain tumor was only 20% removed because of the delicacy of the brain. They hardly tell me about their plans. They always try to delay my treatment. Why don't just tell me you don't have the expertise! Until today, they have not come up with an plans for me. Now they might opt for radiation. I've seen people in the same hospital who waited for ages to be given radiation. Now Keisha tells me radiation increases the growth rate of my tumors. I'm not going to let the hospital delay me. I admit. I despise my parents. I don't hate them. But just despise them. Because if it wasn't for their irresponsibility, I would have been treated much earlier. Why do I have to wait for 3 whole years before they seek medical attention?!? Until my tinitus and spine took the better of me?!? WHY!!! Even until today my parents still live in denial. They never understand the fact that I still have 4 benign tumors in my brain. All as critical as the other and they're all growing as the clock ticks. They will reach a maximum point and burst. When that happens I will say goodbye to this world. They know this well. But why do they still insist of neglecting me? Mom insists to stay with this surgeon. Because she's not willing to think of another solution. She doesn't understand how critical my situation is. She's a coward! I am very glad to be finally 18. 5 months from now, I'm 18! I am no longer dependant on my parents decisions. I can decide for myself. My parents no longer have to be present for any treatment. I am so happy about this. This year I plan to ditch my surgeon. Keisha's making an appointment for me with another surgeon. She says he's good. Meanwhile, I'm trying to find a source of income for my treatments. But where should I start? Yet another dillema....

So fast is the 2nd day of CNY oledie. Yesterday was....so normal. Like every year, dad and I went for prayers and met a lot of aunties and uncles. Many relatives came visiting to my house in the afternoon, some I've not seen for a whole year cuz of distance. In the evening I watched the 35th TVB anniversary. Lawrence Ng and Ada Choi won award for Healing Hands II! WoooooooT! Cool Man! Ada was very excited when she got the award while Lawrence with his calm gentlemen attitude, just grinned from ear to ear. It was sad he didn't win the other award he was nominated. If Malaysia sells Healing Hands DVD I would certainly buy it and watch it 100x over! We went out for dinner and that was all yesterday. Watched TV most of the time actually. Then what about today? My aunt and her family came visiting. Its great to see my cousins again. I had a good chat with them about education. In the evening, Swee, Owen, Amy and Ann visited. How sad Felicia and Yewin couldn't make it. But I'll be seing them again next week in Swee's house. HeHe!! Tomorrow will be our turn to go "house hopping". Hopefully can collect more ang paus. kekekeke!

Happy Chinese New Year to all fellow bloggers, blog readers, and friends. Here it is again, beginning of a new lunar year, year of the monkey. Reminds me of my aunt for if she's alive she'd be 60! CNY is just another day to me. Apart from the customary visits by relatives and house decor, I don't quite see anything special with CNY. Maybe its maturity, maybe ignorance. But over the times, I'm more 'neutered'. I hope I used the right word. I no longer feel joy and grief. Maybe a little, but not to the extend I could give away an honest laugh or cry. What is wrong with me? Am I down on depression? If so, then I'm probably depressed for two years now. It takes nothing to make me really happy nowadays. Say, when I'm presented with an unexpected "gift", I'd laugh off to please the presenter. But my true feelings are, "so what?" So what if its CNY? just another day for me. Except that my bank account goes fatter. Otherwise, I wish there is college instead. There's nothing better than attending college and doing assignments. And yet, most of my friends are already fretting in their first week of college. "Have to wake up so early!" "Sooo many assignments!" Maybe because I'm doing what I enjoy. So it's a pleasure to do it. :-) In a few hours from now I'd be getting ready to follow daddy go for prayers. Then I'd be back with mommy to welcome visitors. Then the external family will go for reunion dinner. Then we'd be back to watch TV, chat and eat oranges. SEE ITS SO ROUTINIZED! *sigh* Anyway, HAPPY CNY! I thought firecrackers are banned by the Malaysian government and I just heard my neighbours playing with 'em. And they didn't invite me! Lastly, thanks everyone for the wonderful greeting cards delivered to my postbox. Haha! and not to forget Yewin's which he personally delivered yesterday. Now I feel guilty for not sending any greeting cards.

DESCRIBE YOUR... 1. [wallet] Milk Teddy wallet. Brown in color with a big teddy secret compartment in the front. Whoops! too much said. 2. [hairbrush] I use comb. Too shorrt to be brushed. 3. [toothbrush] normal toothbrush. I can't even remember the brand! 4. [jewelery worn daily] a silver necklace. Valentines' around the corner. a new pendant would suffice. :-Þ 5. [pillow cover] my mom buys linens in sets. and its all cartoon for me. 6. [blanket] its a comforter with animal caricatures. 7. [coffee cup] my usual cups. 8. [sunglasses] rectangle rim. everyone says i look good in 'em! but i seldom use. 9. [underwear] this is for me to know ONLY. 10. [cologne / perfume] don't need 'em. 11. [CD in stereo right now] some love songs alicia complied for me.. 12. [tattoos] none and NO WAY! 13. [piercings] one on each ear. 14. [what you are wearing now] pyjamas. 15. [in my mouth] teeth, tongue, saliva, germs. 16. [in my head] so much to answer.... 17. [wishing] New laptop! and a cure for NF. 18. [after this] TV! 19. [fetishes] English? 20. [if you could get away with it and murder anyone, who and for what] Can't think of anyone. 21. [person you wish you could see right now?] Lawrence Ng! oh...maybe not. some people lah.. 22. [is next to you] fan 23. [some of your favorite movies] Healing Hands! I wanna the DVD! BUT MALAYSIA NO HAVE! 24. [something you're looking forward to] Valentines no date. *sob* 25. [the last thing you ate] Walls Green Tea ice-cream. 26. [something that you are deathly afraid of] slimmy creatures. 27. [do you like candles] no preference. Elena thinks its kinky. ??? 28. [do you like incense] it triggers my nose to run! 29. [do you like the taste of blood] sluuuuuuuurp...ooooooooh! 30. [do you believe in love] who doesn't? 31. [do you believe in soul mates] "someday my prince will come" Alicia Leong. 32. [do you believe in love at first sight] where got such thing? you've gotta know a person to like him. 33. [can you eat with chopsticks] I'm a chinese thru n thru. 34. [what are some of your favorite candies] no preference. 35. [what's something that you wish people would understand] my disabilities, eg. I can't hear if u speak too soft! dammit~! n look at me when you talk so I can read your lip! (Word) : (first impression/word/sentence in mind) 1. Head : mindfulness. 2. Car : We're getting there soon. 3. Photo : memories, all alone in the moonlight... 4. Electronic : computer. 5. Ring : commitment, boundary. 6. Rose : classy. 7. Thongs : ridiculous. 8. Shoes : comfort. 9. Ass(buttock) : shit. 10. Gay : good friends. 11. Food : yuuuuuuuuumy! 12. Drinks : no thirst. 13. Girlfriend : Tong and Leong. 14. Boyfriend : Emotional support. 15. School : air-cond 16. Love : warmth. 17. Best Friend : come and go. 18. Hate : make peace, no hate. 19. Quote : When you think you can, you can! 20. Bitchy : immature.

Wat a very very loooooooooong day! Woke up reluctantly at 9am, went to the KTM station by 10am but Cheryl apparently slept through the alarm rings! So we travelled to KL Sentral separately. I met Jessie, my good ol' online buddy I've know for....a year? We knew from the Lee Hom discussion forum and has been contacting via phone and net until we finally meet today. Jie Yow arrived later and told her about Omega Trend. When he left, Cheryl came and when she left, we talked for awhile before going to the airlines company to double check the flight booking. Then, we took the LRT to Pasar Seni and shoppeed around Petaling Street for a few hours! and I'm dying to go back there again cuz things there are so bloody cheap! I bought myself a shirt, a handbag and some new year cards. I so wanted to buy this weird shirt, it fits me perfectly but then one part of the shirt was kinda flimsy so I had to let it go. *sob* Half the time I scouted around hoping to find an identical one somewhere else but I couldn't! *sigh* I like that shirt sooooooo much!

My relatives used to tease me about the countless moles around my body. I used to hate it so much I wish I could rip the all off especially the one on my nose bridge. My friends and I came across this fortune teller last CNY and he was able to tell which moles is good and bad. I went to him with the intend to remove the one on my nose only but I ended up removing more than 10 on my face, costed me for more than RM180. I'm superstitious...but I do doubt the truth behind all these taboos. here's a brief theory on some of the moles on my body. Abdomen/stomach: Lazy, selfish, greedy, and untidy disposition Am I lazy, selfish or greedy? I don't think so. Maybe a bit lazy but selfish? greedy? Maybe selfish...but...hmm..not so much truth here. Right arm: On the right arm, it foretells of success in life; most of the enterprises to which the person puts his/her hand on will have a satisfactory result. And I always hated this big mole on my arm cuz its so obvious. Left arm: anxiety over financial matters will never go away for long This mole goes hidden under my watch. I think this is true. It's in me since young whether I have money or not, I won't stop worrying about money. Right cheek: Foretells a happy and fortunate marriage; the nearer to the mouth it is located, the greater will be the wealth and good fortune brought to the person by their spouse. The lucky possessor of a mole on this part of the body will never be reduced to poverty or anxiety regarding means of existence. They all told me the same thing about this part but there is also another indication in my palm which astrologists either overlook or never mention. Side of Neck: A mole on the side of the neck reveals that the person will suffer a remarkable up and down feeling in the course of their life. The progress of career will at first be slow, but with persistence can be rewarded. Unforeseen gifts and legacies and inheritances are indicated as well the fortitude of having faithful friends. Nose: A very lucky sign, for these folks will enjoy success and prosperity, and practically every undertaking will have a satisfactory outcome. Wide travelling and frequent change of scenery are also indicated. A mole on the side of the nose (especially in women) often gives a voluptuous temperament I GOT THIS ONE REMOVED! Right wrist: The subject who has a mole on either right or left wrist will have a very interesting and successful career. Their own intelligence and the talents they are blessed with are valuable assets and will generally ensure them of success and happiness in life. Got these information here: http://www.geocities.com/Athens/2377/Divination/moles.html And if you'd like to know more physiognomy(face reading): http://www.sanepinay.com/others/faceindex.html http://www.chiofearth.com/article4.htm

Almost everyone's home. Only a few of us left in this computer lab. The other two lab is closed already. I think someone is playing the grand piano next door. I can hear it from here. I'm getting closer to everyone else in class. I wonder how is Kenrick fitting into his new class. He's doing SAM in Taylors. I wonder how is he surviving with guys now, cuz he had always been the only guy among us. Will be meeting him up tomorrow afternoon. I hope to catch up with him. I didn't get to do that at Phoebe's b'day party cuz its HER party. Oh yes, I finally achieve Club 3! kekeke! so happy....

I'm here....freezing cold in college. 2D & 3D class was fun. Our lecturer for this subject is an architect by profession and lecturing is his part-time job. Very friendly man. Got a little closer to a few people in class. Kang and Liew are very friendly but they speak mandarin most of the time. :-( Photography class made my eyelids heavy enough to shut completely. Knew Tim, a 2nd semester Interior Design student. I actually noticed him during orientation because he looked so much like Joel. He sat next to me in photography class today and we talked a little. He don't look so much like Joel now, more like Jonathan, Joel's brother. But Jonathan is fatter. :-) Oh btw, Joel sent me a mail yesterday which appeared like junk to me so I deleted it. Maybe someone hecked his mail. Why would Joel send me anything? I was walking around and spotted Hong Da, the student president of music department, in one of the music rooms. He was writing some scores and I meanly interupted him to ask about Wednesday's choir lesson. Music school is having an orientation on Wednesday evening and so I've to attend that as well as choir lesson in the afternoon. I better maintain my voice the next two days. My existing book stand is not in good condition. I'm hoping to buy a new one but there ain't music shops in Summit except for an isolated piano showroom. Vienna is near my house. I shall go there. And no, I don't live in Austria. I'm now waiting for my mom to come so I can have dinner with her. Meanwhile, I'm browsing around aimlessly.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PHOEBE! She turned 15 today. We celebrated at Lake View club yesterday. There were Elena, Kenrick, Alicia, me and other xfreshers present. There were lots of interaction. At night, Elena, Aznin, Syefri, Albert, Trent, Andy and I slept over at Phoebe's place. I was very sleepy at first when everyone else was wide awake but when everyone was sleepy, I was WIDE AWAKE! so when everyone slept, Andy and I talked all night in the living room with Albert and Trent sleeping on the sofa. Dunno how that Albert can sleep with the noise. He was the first to sleep at 2am! The rest were sleeping in the room. At around 7am I decided to take a nap but was woken up by a sudden phonecall. It was Jessie! She called to let me know that all Lee Hom's plans in Malaysia are cancelled!! AAAH!!! and I was supposed to watch his showcase tomorrow!! At first, they said his flight was delayed cuz they thought Lee Hom's fever would go off but it didn't until now. He's now still in Shanghai treating his fever in a hospital. They suspect SARS. NOOOOOOOO!!!!!!! I felt quite bad cuz my h/p wasn't right next to me and the ringing volume was set to the max so when it rang, Albert, Trent and Andy woke up imidiately as thoough there was a fire! heehee...and it was so hell difficult to wake Albert up. *sigh* We went to Kafe 7 to meet up with Han for lunch. They played fossball and I playedd pool with Elena before going to Summit to watch a movie. What was the title again? Forgot oledie.... but it was a great show and I was freeeeezing. It's about this family with 12 children living in the countryside when the father received a job offer as a sports coach in the city. The job comes with lots of benifits but the children were very reluctant to move. They did anyhow and in the end discovered that their old lifestyle was still the best so they moved back. Very good show but I would have watched it another day as I only need to pay RM5 for a ticket! using my student ID. *sigh* After movie, we played a few games of pool, had dinner and came home. Today is great. It was about a month or so I haven't seen some people and I met a new friend, HAN! Han's a very humble, generous and easy-going guy. hehehe!! Now I hope I get enough rest tonight cuz tomorrow I've classes. I'm starting my Dimensional design and photography classes tomorrow!!! YAY!!!

Aaah! My back really aches now. I'm here in Msc's computer lab with two other girls on the other side, using the graphics computers and a few engineering people upstairs. I also saw 2 other ppl using laptops on the way here. It's 8:30pm now and it freaking scarry here cuz including the 4 guards, there are less than 20 ppl in college!!!! Ok...how did I end up here? I only have 1 class today which is color & form and my lecturere is TADA!... well-known artist Jolly Koh! Ok...you might have not heard of him unless you're doing art like ME! They always say artist are whackos and I always dismissed that ridiculous accusation but after I met Jolly yesterday, IT'S TRUE!! But then...he is really experienced. He's an art graduate from Uni. of London and have 45 years experience is art and 40 years in lecturing! My gosh...you won't believe it but our Malaysia National Art Galery pays him RM6k a month just to teach 4 classes!....one class per week. Fuuuyoh! ok...enough of him. Now what I did today? He taught us about color...painting....gave us some work and that's why I stayed back, to finish everything up. But I was all alone staying back as non of my classmates did. It was alrght at first. I was at peace with air-conditioning and a big table to draw on except that I have to bend over and that's bad for my back. Until 5:30pm I decided to have my dinner so I went to the shopping mall and had NASI LEMAK! When I came back, I continued painting and at this time I was already a little scared cuz the place is so quiet especially where the art classes are located at. But at this time there were still quite a number of people around. Then at 8pm it was so quiet that I decided to leave. My work was already finished then so I packed and came downstairs and MY GOSH!! the place is freaking silent!!! All the staffs are gone except for a few students and the computer lab upstairs, my favourite, is LOCKED! damn.... so I came here....this is my first time using this lab cuz its always full here...I dunno why. Im glad being an art students because I LOOOOVE art...anything that requires painting, drawing, setching...whatever. I grew up with ART! But for one thingI dislike...THE FOLIO!!!!!!!!!! why? cuz I'm too bloody hell short and when I straighthen my arm downwards the folio touches the ground! So I have to lift my arm a little while walking. I also don't like carrying all the paints and brushes around...but I have no choice and I don't want to leave them in the locker. MY PRECIOUS!! *sigh*

I am blogginf in college now. I'm 1/2 hours early for choir class and no one is in the theatre yet. So I walked around and stumbled upon this computer lab. Well, apparently they have a few labs and this one is actually for the computer students but hehehe....it doesn't matter. So I walked in and whoa...not even 1/2 the computers are being used. So empty and cooooold. I heard in Taylors it is very difficult to use the computer there. But here, its so empty even in the afternoon! Hmmm...I can't wait for choir to start. I wonder where is everyone else. Ok...I've nothing to do now......ZzzZZzZzZz

Today's my first day at college. I remembered very well setting my alarm clock to go off at 8am but I think the battery ran low and I woke up 15 minutes later by chance. I've been feeding my mind with the thought that I should wake up at 8am and so I did without depending on the hopeless alarm clock. Ok...back to college. I dressed up and daddy fetched me to college(this is not so bad after all) and first person I saw in college was Navin at the front office. He's my course counsellor all these while. I took a lift up to level 3(so Mr. Palani, our principal told me) but was further instructed to proceed to level 4, where MsC is part of Prime Group of Colleges. I signed my attendance, got a handbook and went into the theatre hall where the orientation started. This lady frrom the bursary office told us jokingly, "you're no longer in secondary school...so you won't want me to be chasing after you..." and this reminded me of my first few days in SMSJ when our teachers told us, "you're not in primary school anymore, so stop behaving like one!" hah! Those were the days.... *sob* 1 1/2 hours later, first half of the orientation ended sooner than scheduled. There was a recruitment drive outside the hall and I was hopefully looking for a choir club. But DANG! they don't have it and I don't want to set up my own club, that sounds vein. I was so very dissapointed that I have no idea why but I put my name into the COMPUTER CLUB!!! Ah....but I've just sent my cellphone for servicing so hopefully they call me before I get hold of my phone back. I went to Makro with my parents after that to 'stock up' for Chinese New Year. I was back to college at 2pm when I met Jen Li while collecting my erm...what do you call it, starter kit? Its a file containing goodies and guides to college life. Jen Li's doing management in Prime College which is just a step away. I'm glad to see someone I know. Later in the hall, we were introduced to our lecturers and for me, the design students. The head of department took us on a tour around campus and gave us a brief summary on what we'll be going thru. I also met my course lecturer who's a funny man, so he seems. I also got to know this great new friend named San Ru(see I can remember!) from Johor. She is now 20, transfered from Lim Kok Wing and now in semester 2, 6 months ahead of me. I hope to know her more..she's a very nice person. I'm glad to be in a small class again. I estimate my class to be around 10-15 students excluding those from other semesters and when we major in semester 2, there will only be 5 of us doing Interior Design! This is so much lesser compared to my form 4 & 5 class that only consisted of 20 girls and Kenrick. We also got our timetable today and WHOA! for the next six months I only have 10 hours of lectures per week! This is too relaxing so I got up my courage to see the Head of Music department and he allowed me into his CHOIR!!! which is on every Wednesday afternoon. So now, I've 12 hours of classes which is 3 days of study per week! This is like a part-time course! But only for the first 6 months, foundation. Thru San Ru, I learnt that a semester 2 student takes 6 subjects + 1 LAN subject per week(I'm taking 4 + 1 choir elective currently) My mom doesn't really like choir and she insisted that I take the 1 to 1 vocal training instead. I'll ask about that when I go to college on Wednesday. I think I'm going to love it here in MSC International cuz of the flexible scedule and the friendly staffs. But most of all I can practice my two main interest which is DESIGN AND SINGING!!!!!!! WHEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hawh...I feel so baaad now. Kean Leng didn't sound too pleased on the phone. It's all MY fault. I should've been truthful to him. I supposed he got scolded for not attending his family dinner. He still looked very chirpy at the talk this afternoon. BTW, Authur was such a delightful speaker I wish he can have more speeches for us in the future. In lighter note, COLLEGE'S COMMENCING TOMORROW! *wheeeeeeeeeee* I've longed badly for this very day and it came...!!! I was told orientation takes only a few hours, I hope its true cuz I wanna go CNY shopping with my mom in the afternoon!! I've been reading this book called, "Men are from MARS, women are from VENUS". It's a great book you should get it! I realised I've mis-judged men so many times in the past I wish time could rewind itself so I can undone things I shouldn't have done and said.

What a long day...and I hate being stupid. How stupiiiiiiiiiid I was today. My phone is faulty and they told me to get back to the dealer. So I took KTM down to KL Sentral and I've to put up with the super slow KTM commuter. After getting off at KL Sentral, I got myself McD McTwist cone on the way to the ERL station nearby. When I was half way up the escalator, I was busy eating my ice-cream that I didn't notice the train there so I ran to it and was on time before it closed its door. I was so thrilled standing by the side cuz it feels like you're sanding in mid-air since the track is only a quarter on the train and when I looed at the map in front of me, I over-looked Bukit Bintang and thought I got the wrong track so I quickly jumped off and when I enquired at the information counter I realised how foolish I was so I took the next train and got off at Sungei Wang. It took me more than 15 minutes to locate the right dealer cuz there were SO many people and SO many hangphone shops. But the sales girl told me to go over to Plaza Low Yatt myself for a quick service. I did as told and asked a few people how to get there and among the poeple I asked, one guy jokingly said, "Low Yatt ah? Close down already!" FUNNY! And he showed me the way anyhow. I walked over to Low Yatt plaza situated opposite Sungei Wang and was again told to go somewhere else for a real quick service. This time, its Plaza Berjaya. This one is a bit hard to find cuz of the many buildings located near each other. With the help of a friendly trtaffic police I got there and learnt I can actually get the service here in Summit USJ!!! So then, I thought since I am already here, why not explore Berjaya Times Square which is just right opposite. So then I walked over to the so-called-largest-shopping-complex but it was SOOOO boring in there I had to get out quick! I didn't even bother to check out Cosmos World. So I decided it is time to go back so I followed the normal route back and enduring the hell slow KTM(I wish they have ERL or LRT stations here in Subang). Then from KTM Subang I took a bus to Summit USJ but the shop was closed cuz it was already after office hours. Damn it!! And I was actually in the same complex earlier in the morning to pay my tuition fees! *sigh* But its a good trip to burn some calories. On the bus, I met a deaf couple who communicates to each other across the isle using sign language and used his h/p SMS feature to talk to the driver. He seemd like a chirpy guy and wouldn't stop signing even for a moment. I so wanted to type on my phone and show it to him, "May God be with you" but I was afraid he might feel insulted. Earlier in college, I met a guy in wheelchair also paying for school fees. So many times in a day I realised how much I take myself forgranted. At Times Square a few guys approached me with a flier but I shooked it off thinkign its some promotional thingie. But after saying no, thanks, I realised its actually a drive for the wild life. I so wanted to turn back but I remembered I only had RM10 in my wallet. I've learnt many things today. 1. I'm gifted the ability to hear although below average but I'm already very lucky compared to those born deaf. 2. I can walk on my own free will, another gift from God. 3. Bring extra cash when you travel down town. You'll never guess what you might run into! I'd better get some good rest tonight. Tomorrow will be another long one as I'm scheduled to go to TTDI with some friends.

New year new beginning. I hope for a better year to come. I sometimes put on the bored look on my face. but its only because i am too tired to bother keeping up an expression all the time. In fact, I don't feel that bored after all. We all strive to be better people, but just most of the time we're overshadowed by peer pressure and joy we tend to forget our job. So this year's resolution would be an easy word but hard task. I hope to be someone less demanding. Many times I've tried to deny that fact but since everyone says so now, I guess it is a real problem. *sigh* Prescription #1: Gratitude A gentleman I was talking to on the phone related that his doctor and the EMR team had told him his heart stopped beating and he had died at least ?ve times during surgery. He concluded our conversation by saying, "I used to have troubles, but now I have only blessings." His outlook clearly had been turned around by this experience. I meditate each day, and one portion of the meditation consists of my thinking about what I am grateful for. Most of us never stop to consider our blessings; rather, we spend the day only thinking about our problems. But since you have to be alive to have problems, be grateful for the opportunity to have them. Some people use their problems to get attention and are afraid to give them up and be blessed. I prefer to appreciate life and accept my problems as a part of my life. When my body gets to the point where I can no longer function or feel gratitude, then I'll leave it and become grateful again. But until then, I will appreciate what I have and not whine about what I don't have. I will feel blessed by life and the opportunity to help others see that they are blessed too. Blessings come in many shapes and sizes. Be prepared, as my gentleman caller was. Prescription #2: Hope Hope restores us. What each of us hopes for will differ and change with time. I believe we need hope to go on living. Hope inspires us to reach for the future. It gives us something to look forward to and strive for on our path. If we had no hope-for a cure, for winning the lottery, for falling in love, for the end of war, for being free of abuse, or for having food, warmth, clothing, and shelter-we would have no reason to go on. What you hope for doesn't matter, but rather the essence of hope itself. I see people who die a few minutes after a doctor tells them there is no hope of a cure. They give up and go. Others get angry and ?nd joy in proving the doctor wrong. Something within them is challenged and hopeful. Hope is the divine motivator. Prescription #3: Guidance One day Marilyn, one of our support group members, sent me an email with the subject line "guidance." In her email, she told me that the word "dance" being a part of the word guidance made her think about how dancing is like doing God's will. Two people dancing are not struggling with each other; one leads and the other willingly follows. When the two become a team, their movements flow in harmony with each other. When she looked back at the word she saw the G as representing God and then U and I. So guidance is about God, you, and I dancing together. When you are willing to trust and believe, guidance comes. I believe the rhythm we should all be dancing to comes from our Creator. It allows us to move as a team while creating our unique dance of life. Prescription #4: New Year's Resolutions It is not a bad thing to make a New Year's resolution, but you can also continuously set yourself up to fail. Be realistic and forgiving. The best resolution is to accept your limitations and start from there. Resolve not to give up on yourself, and to love yourself, even when you don't like your behavior. So resolve to practice doing what you have resolved, rather than achieving sainthood tomorrow. As you write down your resolutions, remember these things: Be kind; do not set yourself up for failure by creating multiple resolutions that involve too much self-denial. Keep your goals manageable and realistic. The best resolutions leave one day of the week to enjoy being human and not living by any rules or expectations you have created. Prescription #5: Every Day Is New Year's A "new year" - I think the term is an oxymoron. How can you have a new year? You are the same person, and the world doesn't start again with a clean slate. Your troubles don't disappear. People don't forgive you for what you did the year before. Unless you have amnesia, your life is anything but new when you awaken on the ?rst day of the year. It is simply a way of measuring the passage of time. Why make such a fuss over it? The truth lies in our desire to be reborn, to start again, to make resolutions and changes we can live up to. Then why wait for a certain date to start a new year? Why can't tomorrow be New Year's Day? Maybe it is! I see it every day in my role as a physician: People learn they have a limited time to live, and they start their New Year behavior. They move, change jobs, spend more time with those they love, stop worrying about what everyone else thinks of them, and start to celebrate their life. They are grateful for the time they have to enjoy life and they stop whining about what they wish had happened during the past year. When every evening is New Year's Eve and every day you awaken is New Year's Day, you are living life as it was intended. Best regards, Juliet Lee Look backward with gratitude and forward with confidence.

Last night was a great one. Watching so many fireworks in Millennium park. They were so beautiful. It was so cool watching them with my dear friend, Elena, Alicia, Amy and Kenrick. After that we shouted and sang "auld lang syne" aloud like nut cases. And for once Kenrick sang properly. *sigh* I really AM gonna miss Kenrick. Dunno why, I used to hate the thought of him so much because of his carefree attitude and sloppy appearance. Buut come to think of it, he was a very good friend who stood by me when I needed someone to talk to, a guy's oppinion especially. Now he's studying in Taylors' College I'll never see him again. *sob* Oh....one funny thing. We were erm...playing around with Kenrick and he ran somewhere when we decided to leave so we walked off but he didn't realise that. The place was really dark so when he came back to that spot, he saw someone and thought it was one of us so he went and HUG THAT GUY!! HHAHAHAHA!!! Luckily he didn't shout Molest or Kenrick's doomed. LOL! Now I wish we could go back in time...*sigh*